it's almost your birthday, dad.

I would do anything to be able to hand you that flower. It is such a small gesture, but a gesture that I haven't been able to make in nearly ten years. I just want to see you. I want to smell you. I want to make sure that you think I am doing the right things, that I am making the right choices. I want you to meet the man I am so insanely in love with. I want to get your blessing. I want to be able to call you everyday. I just want the hurt of all of the things I can't say to you, I can't do with you, to go away. I am worried that overtime I will lose all memories of you, as I have already started to lose a lot. That scares me more than anything. I miss you so much.

communal declaration of faith

Loving life
and its mysterious source
with all our heart
and all our spirit,
all our senses and strength,
we take upon ourselves
and into ourselves
these promises:
to care for the earth
and those who live upon it,
to pursue justice and peace,
to love with kindness and compassion.
We will teach this to our children
throughout the passage of the day --
as we dwell in our homes
and as we go on our journeys,
from the time we rise
until we fall asleep.

change we NEED

Went to the Obama rally at the train depot downtown. It was fucking incredible. This man is MY next president. Register to vote if you haven't already, whether you are Republican, Democratic, or in a third party.

it's just one of them days

It has been pouring rain all day today. Rainy days always put me in a bad mood. I am supposed to get my bike today, but what is the point with all of this rain.

I just found out that my friend got in his first car accident today.

Rain, rain, go away.